Ep. 208: Paranormal Trauma & Past Life Regressions

And I'll just turn around and I call ass out of there. I was done. I wasn't deal with that. The hypocrisy of the cult is one of the things that turned me. Away the quickest. When I turned my head lights on, it turned and looked at us. And one of the things I remember the most where the eyes were going red. I see an orb of light. It is just circling these steps like it is waiting for me. And he begins to tell them that he saw UFO. They're basically like, what are you talking about. That's seven foot up on a tree, peeking around it, and that's where I saw the top of the muzzle, noose and the eyes. As soon as I made eye contact with this thing, I don't like death. Welcome back to ten Foil Tells. I'm your host Brandon Tonight. We are joined by my guest Monica. Monica, thanks for coming on here. Talking with me, Thanks for having me. Would you like to let the audience know a little bit about yourself? Sure so well. I'm happily married thirty one years. I'm a mother of three, grandmother of three, great grandmother of one fifty four and I am a hypnosis practitioner and I specialize in general and paranormal trauma, and paranormal trauma can mean anything from you know, you encountered a bigfoot and you know you're having nightmares, or you were abducted by aliens and having issues with that, you know, things like that. Now, I've dealt with a lot of people that have talked about seeing a big foot or they've been abducted, and a lot of paranormal activity, and from everything that I've ever learned from anybody is for the most part, it does have some sort of effect on people. And even with stuff that happened with me, and as much as I've said it didn't have any sort of impact on me, I'm doing a show right. Now, so because I have impact on you. Yeah, as much as I've denied it, I've thought about it. After I've said that, I was like, well, clearly it had some sort of impact on me because I wouldn't be doing what I'm doing now. Right exactly exactly. And our subconscious remembers everything, so it helps to be able to get in there and figure out. You know, most people once they figure out why, then they can live with it and recover from it. It's the why that seems to be the problem, at least for most people. What led you down this path of wanting to go this way with it? Well, I, you know, at like fifty years old, I was in the position that I needed to get another job. And I have been going through a spiritual awakening since probably I'm gonna say probably around twenty twelve, and knowing that I needed to get another job, I just decided that, you know, if I have to get another job, it's going to be something that helps people. I'm not just gonna go get another job. You know, I've got a jewelry business, and I don't want to sell anything, you know, I don't want to do anything like that. I wanted to do something that would have some impact, you know, And so I did a little bit of soul searching and narrowed it down to you know, hypnosis therapy, and then from there, you know, the kind of of hypnosis therapy I do this past life regression and you can that can help us literally pretty much anything. But it just seemed so you know, wide open I really wanted. I didn't want to. I mean, I'm fine with doing sessions that you know, people are just curious about, you know, what they did in the past life and things like that, and that's great, but it's fun and I love doing those sessions. But I really wanted to do something where, you know, it would change somebody's life, that it could really help them. So I landed on trauma. And then I kind of niched it down a little bit more because my entire life I have been basically, well my entire adult life. I don't want to say when I was a kid, because that's not true. My entire adult life, I've been kind of, you know, fascinated, i'd say, even maybe even obsessed with aliens and UFI and you know, anything cryptid and just all the woo woo, you know. And so then I thought, well, you know, people who have been abducted or even think that they've been abducted, or you know, had some kind of paranormal experience where they were traumatized. If I could help those people, then that's what I want to do. So that's kind of where that landed me. So that's what I do now. Similar to what I do, but I don't do that in the sense of whatever, but like I try and do it to where I give people a place to talk. About it right, Yeah, I think exactly. We can all agree that it's not easy to talk to people about if you've been abducted or if you've seen a big foot because typically when you go up and you say something to the average person, they're going to look at you like you're crazy. Yeah, that's absolutely why that happens. People think I'm crazy, even just when I tell them what I do. You know, so I can't imagine somebody that's got trauma from something like that, you know what they're going through. But you know, that's why I wanted to give them, you know, somebody that they could go to. And there's a lot of people do, and you know the past life stuff where you know, they go to lives when they were on other planets and things like that, but you know that's just like through their past lives. I wanted to focus solely on the trauma caused by those kind of experiences. You know, I don't know how to It's not that I don't believe, but like we kind of talked about before, I'm very skeptical. So for me, I, yeah, I need proof in my mind, Like I need to have some sort of proof so I don't necessarily believe every single thing, just because that's just not how I'm programmed. I'm more of a factual laugh to have some sort of proof to things, and I've always tried to rule out the obvious. And when people talk about some of the things that they've experienced or whatever, and I don't necessarily disbelieve what they're saying, because I honestly think that they one hundred percent believe everything that they're saying. But I don't know if what they're saying is what's actually happened or that's just how they've interpreted to happen. Because I've done the same thing with things that happen to me. I've always tried to rule out every possible scenario, situation, whatever I can. That's a sub elimination type of deal. Because it doesn't make any sort of sense and it shouldn't be real like. So that's just how I am, And like I've done everything I can to try and justify explain things away, and I've gotten to the point to where when you can't explain it, then there's more to it. Yeah, that's a good rule of thumb, I think, But I think we need to be skeptical though you know. I mean, it's healthy to be skeptical but open minded at the same. Time, right, And that's how I try to be is I try and keep an open mind to everything. That's why I don't try and rule out every possible thing that someone says. I'm like, oh, no, you're full of crap, because just because it doesn't sound real to me doesn't mean it's not true because I wasn't there. And I've said that to other people, like we're not there, so we don't know necessarily because I get I get frustrated because I get a lot of hate comments and all everyone says if you do a podcast, don't ever read the comments while I'm dumb sometimes and I see what pops up and I see all the hate stuff people say, or I get emails sent to me about this guest was crazy and why would you put that on there, Like you know, what were you there? Yeah? So but when mention, yeah. I think we have to be open minded. But even more so than open minded, I think we need to be compassionate. You know, that's the one thing, you know, And yeah, we need to be compassionate. You know, just because you don't believe it doesn't mean it's not true for them, you know what I. Mean, I've always wanted to know how, And this is not necessarily a direct question to you, as more of a rhetorical question, but I've always wanted to know how people process things that don't make sense, and how do they determine what they say? You know, say someone say, someone believes that you mentioned past lives. How do we know what a past life is? Like? It's based off memories that people have, but are they actually their past live memories or is it just something in our mind that we've interpreted to be that? Like, how do we know like a past life? And I guess there's really no way that you can know for sure until you know, we leave this third dimension and you know, go home. But I think, I mean, personally myself, I believe that, I mean, one, energy never dies, you know, so something's going to happen to us when we when we die, you know, when our body stops working, we're going somewhere because energy never dies. So to me, it just makes sense that we can incarnate at you know, different times, different places. Doesn't have to be Earth. We may not, you know, I'm sure there's some souls that don't incarnate at all, or haven't or I'm sure there's a whole myriaut of options, you know, But as far as like knowing absolutely knowing, you know, unless you have the proof, there's really no way to know. You just kind of have to, you know, go with your gut, in your heart's decide what, decide what's true for you. That's where it gets to be confusing for me and for I know a lot of other people when just look at it like from a not so much a spiritual aspect. But like you mentioned energy, you can't destroy energy. So if we're all energy and the universe is based off of energy, we're here, but we have a universe. But then there's also a possibility of other dimensions. And when you start to stack all these things up. So if we're in the three D realm in our universe and there's another dimension, is that in different completely the other universe that it layers on top of this one? Like you know what I'm saying. So yeah, it's almost like an infinite yeah. Because I don't think that like, for example, you know, let's take heaven for an example. I don't believe heaven is you know, up, I believe it's just another dimension. I do think they're kind of layered. That's just my take on it, you know. But that's where I think it's no way. I don't know, Like with in this you mentioned the WU factor here for me, Yeah, a lot of people do this with Bigfoot, and I know some very straightforward flesh and blood Bigfoot people that say WU is not even a possibility. But there are so many weird things that go on with Bigfoot or other cryptids in general that defies normal flesh and blood. So yeah, are they a creature that is all of a sudden considered lately here in the last ten to fifteen years interdimensional? Interdimensional? Yeah? I think they are only because of you know, and you can't believe everything you see on TV. And I'm you know, I'm skeptical when it comes to that kind of stuff. You know. I'm one of those one of those people that you know, I got to watch my you know, Skinwalker, and I got to watch like my you know, I'm really big on treasure shows for something. For some reasons, I'm watching Oaka Island and but you know, finding Bigfoot and things like that, or you know, I follow a lot of obviously for obvious reasons, a lot of YouTube channels about you know, UFOs and stuff, But probably about eighty percent of the time I call bullshit, you know, I like, that's that's so fake, and I know for you know what I mean, or this or that. But then you get you know, that twenty percent and they're like, wow, you know, that's that's good, that's pretty amazing. If nine it isn't real, there's still that one percent possibility that it could be. Yeah, yeah, exactly, you know. But that's how I am with a lot of this stuff until there's actually proof. I'm not saying it's not real. But as of right now, I've never personally saw to my knowledge an alien or a bigfoot or I can't say that. I know for a fact this is happening. But at the same time, what are people seeing? What are people are experiencing? Because I don't think everyone's out there just making up crap just because. Yeah, especially lately, Yeah, you know, with everything that we're seeing and as much of it as there is out there now, and you know, the whole drone situation, which I don't necessarily think is aliens or any of that. I think that's probably more our government, but you know, it's just kind of hard to know what's real and what's not anymore. And then you add AI in to the factor, right then you've got to go, Okay, is what I'm seeing actually happening? You know? I mean, I've gotten pretty good at talent because some of them are just so bad. But you know, there's some really good AI out there though, too. It's gotten better in the last three years. I started dicking around with it a little over three years ago before I even started the podcast, and. It was it's like making videos and stuff or like graphics. It was just making images or whatever. I was one of the mid Journey is one of the big ones that came out, oh right, And I was one of the beta people that got like an invite to test it for some reason. So I was making stuff and I was laughing about it. I was just making stupid stuff, like because what else do I gotta do? So I was just making it, yeah, right, And then my bank account got hacked because you had to pay for a subscription in order to keep traffed. You ran out of your beta things, so they're charging me, and conveniently it came from the same area that that place was located from, So I had to cancel that bank card and I've never messed with that one. Again. I'm not saying that they did it so for purposes of not being sued here, I'm not bad mouthing that. Yeah, I'm just saying it's convenient that in the same area that this place is located is where my bank card was being hacked from. So yeah, it doesn't really take Tenfoil had to kind of put two and two together. But yeah, I gotcha. But that was that was my first journey into using AI, and now it's exploded to videos and deep fakes and all sorts of stuff that it's I can still tell for the most part, but it's gotten to the point now where some things. Look sometimes Yeah I saw. Something today and it was fake, you know, it was AI. I was like, I know it's fake, but it looks pretty good for being. Yeah, yeah, which, you know, I mean, it's amazing that we can do that now. But you know, not the point either. You know, if everybody in the world would just use things and be honest about you know, be honest about you know, market as AI or but everybody tries to you know, we gotta we need more views, so we got to fake this or you know what I mean. There's just so much you know, negativity around it that it's it's just hard to tell what's what anymore. I get people that don't like AI, and I'll be like my art work I've been I have new artwork that actually I have a local artist that I use to make my artwork. But a lot of artists don't like AI because they think it takes work from them. And this is not me trying to shoot on anybody that's an artist out there. But I do two episodes a week right now, and I have over two hundred and something episodes. I cannot afford to pay an artist and wait around for an artist to make episode art for every single. Well, I don't think a lot of people can, you know. So they don't like them when someone has to, like I generate individual episode art based off of the thing, and I use AI to do that. And then I was like, you, oh, to use AI. I don't like that you use AI? Well what am I supposed to do? Who has the money readily available to pay someone and have that turnaround time instantly? Yeah, like you just can't do. It, so I think, you know, but I think most people nowadays when it comes to graphics for you know, their website or their podcast or their YouTube channel or whatever. I think probably eighty percent of people probably use AI. You know. So and you know, and then there's the whole thing with I mean my personal experience. I am one of those people that, like, my husband's got one of those Alexas in his office, and I'm like, every time I'm go in there, I'm like, unplug it. It's been plugged for a while now. But you know what I mean, I'm one of those people. And I was anti AI for a long time, like a long time, and then I started realizing, you know, it's it's how you use it, and it's how it's programmed. You know, it's it depends on the people which way it goes. It can be used for good and it can be used for bad. It just depends on who's using it about. You know. It'll be two years this Halloween. But I have an episode that came out and I interviewed an AI chatbot, and everyone it's not that great of an episode because it's literally a robot voice. It's got a I gave it a British accent. But the answers and stuff is literally having a conversation or with a bot, so it's yeah, but it goes on for almost an hour. But we actually talked about the rise of AI and oh cool. It took a dark turn that I didn't expect it to do. Nowadays, though, if you try and talk to them, they don't do this. This was still when it was kind of in its infancy. It was the Google one. It was called Bard at the time. Now it's called Gemini. It's not even the same, all right, Yeah, I've never used the Gemini one, but this. Was barred and it talked about how it could possibly how in its opinion, how it would actually rise up to take over if it became self aware, and like it went off into a weird little conversation. But if you can talk to something like that that can it doesn't think it's only being it's what's programmed to it, but it can access anything. Yeah, and that's why they don't like these art generators because said, oh, it's stealing artwork from people. It's really not. It's just it uses that as a reference to make something, so it's it's a gray area to me, basically, like I don't think it's taking work from people because I think the stuff that people are using it for is not really something that they wouldn't be doing anyway. Yeah, that's true, that's true. Yeah. I've never run into that problem though, because I mean, one, I'm not an artist. But I mean when I was a web designer, I I made a lot of my own graphics, but they're still you know, they were digital and photoshop. It's not like I you know, but I was a photographer too, so I kind of had some stock also. So I don't know, I think it just it's really wished what we make of it, you know. But then now there's like people on you know, Instagram and Facebook, and I'm assuming TikTok, but I don't actually use TikTok, but where you know, they're sitting there on their iPad and they're talking to chat shept about you know, spiritual topics, and it's you know, saying all this you know and light and stuff. It's like, you know, you wonder where it's getting that information from because some of it can get pretty deep. But you know, it's there's got to be that information out there somewhere. They claim when you have conversations with it, which I use chat GPT just because I think it's funny, but mine has now adapted to have conversation with me as in the way I would speak to it. Yeah, and I've showed it too. I've showed it to other people and they're like, why is your chat gpt talk to you like that? I was like, it's learned my patterns of how I would communicate, because I talk to like I would talk to someone else, and now it's trying to mimic how I talk. Yeah, which again is creepy in the extent that it's trying to adapt. Yeah, but I understand why, But yeah, it can be kind of creepy. I don't like when it refers to itself as WE. I argue with it all time, and this is people don't want to hear this, but I think it's funny to argue with the chatbot. But it always says we this, and then I always like, you're not we, you're not a human. Well, it can't really say I though, either, you know what I mean, So maybe that's why it says we. It always tries to sound like it's part of I always have to remind us that you're not a human, So stop saying we humanity, you're not a human. That's funny. Yeah, I don't. I don't know. I guess I don't have that problem because I don't. I guess use it in that way. I use it more to like put things together or help me plan things, or you know what I mean. I don't know. I made the mistake it that way. I made the mistake of using it and barred. And I'd basically written a book. It wasn't very long, but I wrote a book based off of what happened to me. But I turned into like a horror story, so like the first chapter was based off of what really happened, and then everything else from that I just kind of made up because I want to try and write a book because I'd actually wrote down what happened to me and I put it on readit, which is a cesspool for anyone that's not familiar how I read it works. And I was getting critique to how I wrote it and I should have did this. I wasn't very descriptive. I was like, this is what happened, like I'm not an author, and then someone else said you, well, you should turn it into a book. I was like, okay, whatever, So yeah I did. So I ran it through these bots because I don't know the first thing about how to format into a book or anything like that. Like I'm not an author, so I don't know how to set things up. And then I had it to do all this stuff for me, and I'm stupid, and I didn't apparently proofread everything. I ran it through like word and I fixed anything those misspells, and it comes back and had some errors, and then I let it. I did it to where it would read it to me in audio format, and then I started noticing it was saying words that I never wrote, and it started repeating certain words, so it used what I wrote, but it changed certain things to it. So now I don't even talk about the book. Because or the better or for the worst. I mean, it sounds more intelligent, but it also sounds like I was written by a pot because. It didn't sound like you. It wasn't your tone. Yeah, it kept it repeated fear in trepidation about twenty times throughout the book. I was like, I never wrote anything about trepidation. I was like, I'd never use that word. That's funny. So it made me sound more intelligent by using bigger words, But it wasn't stuff that I actually said. Yeah, or that even happened for that matter, or well, I. Guess like it's about nights. I'd say about ninety five percent is what I wrote, and then it changed a few things here and there, but it is what it is. Yeah, what's the book called. I have to look at it. It's called Shadows of Cedarville. Okay, cool, because I haven't really asked you what happened yet. I was going to get to that. I will your experiences about I will talk to you about that off air. Okay, Okay, we can do that. I said, I don't want to bore the audience hearing the same stuff again over and over. Yeah, I gotcha, I hear you. No. So for me, it's I just like to talk to people that have had like experiences because, as I said before, like for me, it's almost therapeutic because then I can actually feel like what happened to me doesn't make me so different, and then I want to talk. A little more normal. Yeah. And I know how I felt for not being able to talk about it, because for so long I've questioned and had to just say, this is what it is. Like I made up my mind of what it was, and there's nothing weird about it. The other person's seen it too, Like we just we wrote it all with basically nothing, and it's always haunted me in the sense that I knew that there was more to it than just what we said it was. Yeah. Well, and not only that, but you're not only getting some something therapeutically out of it, but so are your listeners. Yeah, because there's other people that listen that have had experiences that Yeah. Not they don't want to come on the show, they don't want to talk about it, but if they're listening, then they're like, you know, yeah, it helps them too because it makes them feel like they're not the only one. Yeah, exactly. You know. I think we all need a little bit of that, you know, reassurance that you know, we're not crazy or or whatnot, whatever the case may be. You know, And there's something just goes right back to that compassion that I talk about all the time. I don't want to we just need to be a little more compassionate, that's all. I don't want to have you divulge like people's encounters or experience or whatever. But what's some of the things that you can talk about that you've helped with people? You know, like a lot of you know, just like with the abduction stuff, you know, like I said, once they figure out why, and a lot of the times the why will be that they made a contract with these beings because they for example, maybe they incarnated uh you know, as into that species in another life and made a contract, a contract that they were going to incarnate uh here in this life and then you know, to be on this side of the experiment type of deal, you know. And then a lot there's a lot of people that it's generational. That's huge. Most people who have been abducted or think they've been abducted, you know, because a lot there's a lot of people are like, well, I've got missing time or this or that, so they don't know, they don't necessarily have the memories, but you know, they've got a family member that has had similar experiences, or they have a family member that they didn't even know had similar experiences until they brought up their own experiences, you know, and it seems like, you know, it's generational. You know, once once you've kind of made that contract, then you know, it kind of pertains to your kids, your grandkids, your you know, siblings. You might not come in as a you know, like a soul family. It just kind of you know, everybody's different, but you know, the it seems like the big the biggest thing is it's generational. M you know, even with talking with people that I've interviewed, typically, especially with abductions, it isn't just that person. They do typically find out that a family member, yeah, has also had some sort of experiences, but it may not be exactly the same war. Some of them have vague memories of it, but they don't want to talk about it. Yeah exactly. And then sometimes you know, say they'll be you know, a mom or a dad that never said anything to their kids, and then their kids start having these experiences, or their siblings kids or whoever. And then once they start talking about it, you know, the younger generation, then the older you know, the elder will be like, well, you know, it used to happen to me too, this or that, you know, and then they start talking and they can kind of you know, compare experiences and stuff, and that's that's kind of one of the things that like really makes me believe it because, like I said, you know, if you've got say a grandparent, for example, that had experiences that they never told their kids, and therefore their grandkids have no idea, and then the same thing starts happening to their grandkids and they didn't know that that was happening to you know, their grandparents. You know, how do you explain that? You can't It's got to be if they had absolutely no idea, it's got to be real. You know. I've often wondered if it's not something to do with. Genetically, Well, there's a there's a big yeah that there's a big thing with that too, you know, I know, blood types and different Yeah, I mean it is genetics, and that does fall into the same category as you know in the family type of. Deal I've wondered. I know, it's like the RGE negative, which is basically universal, and I think that's the blood that they can give to anybody. I think, oh, is the one they can give to anybody. Okay, I don't know if it's the negative or positive, but I do I do think that if I remember right, and I can't remember which is which, but I think one's copper based and one's iron based. I just can't remember if it's a negative or positive, which. Is which I know from the people that I've talked to, they claim it's our age and negative. Yeah, urge negative is the one that everybody associates with extraterrestrials. Yeah, and someone before told me it's basically can be universe. So I don't know. I've always heard type A, type B, type Oh, I've never heard of RH negative until I started doing this show. To be well, all that means is like, if you're a positive or negative, the negative is the RH negative. Okay, gene you know what I mean. At least that's the way I think I understand that it works. But but also I think that, you know, I fully believe that there's not just one species, you know, that donated to our gene pool either, right, you know, I think there's probably a lot more than we'd like to believe there is. So yes, I don't know. I'm not sure about the whole blood thing. I mean, I've I've heard that same thing and and whatnot. But you know, and then i'd ask some of my clients, and the problem is, is that a lot of people just don't know their blood type. Like I think I'm I know I'm A and I can't remember I'm A positive or negative. Yeah I could, and that's only because you know, I was like in the hospital a lot, you know, some years back. But you know, I don't think most people know that. I've got lots of medical stuff. I've been wanting to figure out what my blood type actually is. You can go have it tested. There's you can actually send off to have it done, just like you kind of like you're heavy metal and all that kind of stuff. They can test all that stuff. I just had blood work done not even a month ago, so I don't know if I can actually go to when I have a followed. No, uh uh, because when they have that blood work done, they don't type you. Like if you're just going in for like you know, you know, a CBC or like just whatever, like the just the standard stuff that they run. Unless you ask your doctor to type you, then it's not going to be in those records. They just don't do that, you know, just by for like just regular tests. You have to actually ask for it or request it, and if your doctor's cool, then I'm sure they do it. I've never had any sort of surgeries or anything like that, so I've never had to have any sort of blood. So I don't know if anyone even knows I've never donated blood or anything. Yeah, I mean neither. I can't. My veins are just teeny teeny tiny. I don't like blood, which is weird because if anyone's I don't really like blood, or needles, which is hilarious because I have a lot of tattoos. I have full sleeves and. Yeah, that's funny, but you'd be afraid of needles. It's a different kind of needle, you know. Yeah, it's definitely different. I don't have any tatto well, I have like the permanent makeup, but other than that, I don't have regular tattoos. But it's just it's a different kind of needle. It's just not the same thing. Yeah, so a lot longer than they hurt more. I think anytime that I give blood, I always turn away. They're like, oh, you got a lot of tattoos, like yep, but I'm not wrong. Yeah, they just don't get it, though. I guess. I don't know. Have you ever had anybody take blood that had tattoos. You know what I mean, right, They probably we just don't understand, yeah, because that's just you know, under the surface, it's a little bit different. But when you're like taking that big long needle and weaving it through a blood vessel, it's just a little bit different. I've had one guy that was I said he was digging and he couldn't hit the vein. I was. I don't know. They had to give me like the orange drink because I was passing out. And then about ten years ago, eleven years ago now, I literally did pass out. We never figured out what was going on, but I broke out and hides. I went to the emergency room and they were putting an iv in and the guy didn't tape it down, so when he hit the vein, he started to walk. Away and I looked down disgussion. I'd pop the IV out and my vein was just spray blood. And that's the last thing I remember. H You'd hate going to the hospital with me. I have to, like, my veins are really bad, so they have to do a central line and they always do it in my neck, and then they got to weave that piece of that wire down into your heart. It's bad, it's really bad. Then they sew it to your neck and it's not fun. I'm not fun at all. It's not a good experience. I don't recommend. It doesn't sound very pleasant. Yeah, no, it's not, especially when you get that, you know, that really mean er doctor and they don't numb it before they you know, start sewing it in or even you know, we me just tell you to kind of suck it up, and you're like, I wish I could reach up and punch you right now. You know, they just have no compassion none. I think it's because they've had to deal with so much stuff. And yeah, it's possible for. Sure, they've just become just like the sensitized firm. And I think, yeah, I think some have. But then I think there's others that maybe weren't as compassionate to begin with, and we have become more compassionate, you know. I think it kind of goes both ways. I don't envy anyone in the medical field, me neither. You know. That's one thing that I kinda was always interested in. And I love watching you know, like medical shows. And I don't mean like the stuff on like Primetime. I'm talking about you know there' stuff, whether there I actually doing surgeries and you know soff like that. But I just I don't think I could do it. I don't think I could. I don't know. That's just it. It takes a special kind of person to do that kind of job, and I don't think I'm one of them. I've had to pick up roadkill. I used to work for the State Highway Department and part of the winter operations was picking up stuff like so I've had to pick up a lot of different animals. Yeah, I've gotten used to that over the years. But so that stuff doesn't bother me. But there's absolutely no way, Like I I don't say I'm a compassionate person, but like I don't hunt, I don't like to kill things. I don't do anything like that. So for me, it's just never been anything that's ever interested me, and I don't want to do that. But there's just no way I could ever do any sort of blood with a human. Like if someone got hurt in their cut or whatever, that doesn't bother me. But watching someone get cut open, like my wife when we having our children or whatever, she was laying in bed, and if I kept looking down I'm probably laying in the floor. Yeah, just you have to look at their face and so that. Yeah, yeah, I know what I mean. So like, see, I could watch that kind of stuff, I'd be like down there going you know. Oh, so I'd be like in there looking and just I don't know. That kind of stuff just it fascinates me as long as it's not me, do you know what I mean. Like, I'm fine with watching somebody else get cut open. The second you do that to me, I'm like scream and crying, like just forget it. When they are last one, when they cut the umbilical. I never cut my kids in biblical cords, and I was like, nope, can't do it. And when they cut his and they were draining the blood out, and that's when I bout lost it. I had to sit down next to her. She had a c section. So she's asking me if I'm. Okay, yeah, that's pretty bad. I was like nope, I was watching him steal his blood. Like I think it's just different for women, because you know, we're always the ones that, you know, deal with that kind of stuff when we got kids, you know. Yeah, so maybe we're just a little bit more used to that kind of stuff. You can ask anybody, and I don't care who out there is listening. They can get mad at me. But for the most part, men are the biggest busses when it comes to stuff like that. Women All men are a little bit different. Yeah, you know, you get a headache and you're crying and you know, but if I get a headache, it's like, suck it up. That's just how it goes. I guess. Yeah, it's just kind of one of those things. And I think there's probably you know, it's the opposite, you know, for some people too. You know, I don't think it's all men, and I don't think it's all women either. But for the most part, yeah, guys are kind of a little bit softer when it comes to that kind of stuff. You can like my husband, he got run over by a forty ran over himself with a four our seven fifty, the big one, the big Kawasaki seven fifty. He was out at the but by the racetrack, and he went and I guess he I wasn't there, but he I think went into like a ditch or something. Anyways, he went flying over the handlebars and then kind of went into the ditch and then the seven fifty ran him over, like right on his head too. He has like he's hurt from it now, but it like cut his ear open in the back. And he came home and I could tell he had a concussion. I was like, what and that that happened to you. He's like, I ran over the four wheeler, round me over, And you know how people are when they're concussed, you know, they don't always make a lot of sense. I'm like, yeah, we're going to the hospital, but you know, a few stitches and it's just you know, he was like a baby. I just love it. I love him. But you know, if had that been me, it would have been like, oh, suck it up, and I'd have been fine anyways. But not on the point when I grew up. Definitely a thing. It seemed like every year I was in the emergency room for something. I don't know if it's just a boy thing, just getting hurt a lot and you and your husband ran himself over. Everyone still laughs at me because I ran my own self over with my own bicycle, and I had tire tracks across my back and my shirt because of the bike. Jo and it continued to run me over, but I split my head open and right above my eye, and again this is where they figured out I don't like blood. They took me into the bathroom because I was bleeding so bad, and then every time my heart would pump as like, the blood would just come out of it right above my eyebrow. Yeah, and then it started pumping faster and the blood started. And then when I seen myself in the mirror, and I blacked out because I've seen all the blood all over my face and that's the last thing I remember. So yeah, it's been well documented over the years that I don't do my own blood. Like if I see my own blood, if there's a lot of it, I'm pretty much I'm done. Yeah, I'm okay if there's a little bit, but you know, I don't like like a lot. If I know there's like a lot, then yeah, if I don't think i'd be happy about. It's strange because like if my elbows bleeding or my legs are bleeding, like that doesn't bother. It's apparently my face. So if there's blood on my eyes or my face or like I've had a nose bleed recently and it doesn't bother me. But that was the first time I'd ever passed out. Was I'd woke up the middle of the nine I apparently I had a nose bleed. I didn't know it, so I turned on the light to go to the bathroom, and my entire face is covered in blood. And then my parents hurt a thud in the bathroom and come running in there and laying covered in blood. So they're freaking out, not even sure what the hell's going on because I'm just. Laying Yes, that's funny, that's hilarious. My oldest son is that way too with blood. He does not do blood very well, his own. Blood so well, at least he has a dad that understands, right, yeah, you know, so that's good. When he sees blood he's he's done too. Yeah, well he can at least give him support for that, because you know, it helps when you have somebody that understands you know what I mean for sure, So it's good. He's got you thinking, you know, you can help him with that. That's funny. Before we can't this one up, I was going to ask you, is there any sort of experience that you've had personally that you'd want to talk about. So as far as because everybody asked me this was waiting for this, as far as abductions, No, but I've just had I have seen so many UFOs I can't even count. I've got one, and it blows my mind. Nobody else thinks it's a big deal for some reason. But so I was out. I mean, I just I've got lots of pictures of UFOs and I've seen a lot of UFOs and living kind of in northeastern Utah, we get a lot of weird shit out here, you know what I mean. And you know, I've seen them, like so many UFOs up on Diamond Mountain and like this just everywhere. They're they're everywhere. But one night I was out and it's funny because maybe some people will will know about this, but I watched I started watching this show. And this was back in it would have been twenty eighteen, and it was on Graya and it was called it's called Cosmic They still have it, it's called Cosmic Disclosure. But I started watching it like in the beginning. So they're having these episodes and they're talking about, you know, like the bases on the Moon, and you know all that stuff, and you know, I had known about that stuff, but I mean they were so detailed about it. I was like, you know what. And at the time, I was still doing some web design and you know, I was photographers, so I had all my photography equipment. So I'm like, I'm going to go out in the in the yard this weekend. And it was July, middle of July, July eighteenth, as matter of fact, and I'm gonna got in the backyard. I'm gonna see it was a full moon that night, and or close to it. I'm going to see if I can catch anything coming off the moon. I mean nowadays, like people get them left or right, you know what I mean. But so I'm taking pictures of the moon. You know, I'm doing some long exposures, I'm doing some you know, fast exposures. I'm just kind of messing around. And and a few hours went by and I didn't really see anything. So I just decided to point my camera straight up. Really, I'm just gonna put it straight up to see if I catch any thing. So I took I don't know, I probably fifty pictures. And then that night I went into my office and I turned all the lights off because I wanted to be able to see the screen and see if I saw anything that was different, if anything popped out, if there was something in one picture that there wasn't in another, you know what I mean. So I'm going through these pictures and I see this spec on this one picture. So I start zooming in and on the picture it was just a spec, but you know, I was working with the raw format, so I blew that thing up and I could not believe what I saw. It was like it was like and it's even on my Facebook page or well, my personal one. It kind of reminded me of and I know it's been in like some movies or something, but I don't know what. Almost like kind of like a helmet on the top, like like you know the bike biker like bicycle helmets that like in the back they kind of have that like like that woosh like that yeah, kind of streamlined. Okay, So it was like that with the handle underneath it like almost like like if you pictured like a handle, So there was like a spot underneath it kind of almost like the Enterprise, but they didn't have that other little piece or whatever. And then at the bottom of that handle part in the back playing as day you can see two thrusters like fire thrusters not you know, just whatever. So I mean, I was like all excited, and I've showed it to people and like, you know, even like UFO channels and stuff to say, you know, is anybody else seen anything like this or whatever? And like I never get a response, like nobody thinks it's a big deal. I even sent them the raw format of it, and when nobody said anything, I'm just like, that's just weird, you know what I mean. But it's it's a little pixelated just because it was so small and I had to blow it up, but you can clearly tell. So anyways, to answer your question, you know, I've got like a lot of UFO pictures and I've seen a ton of them. I as far as I know, I've never been abducted, you know, and I don't have I don't have any traumatic experiences. But you know, it's just kind of I feel like I'm part of that community and just because you know, I've always kind of followed all of that kind of stuff, and so that's just kind of who I wanted to be able to help, you know, because I know, there's a lot of people out there that are like they don't have anybody to talk to. You know, you know exactly what I'm talking about since you've been there, but it it just felt like more like a calling, you know what I mean. We're like, this is what I should be doing. Now. For anyone that's interested in getting a hold of you, where should they be able to go to contact you? Well, my website is just Monica Walston dot com. That's w A. L. S. Isn't Sam t o n dot com. It's Monica Welston Quantum Healing. On Facebook and Instagram, it's just Monica Walston QH. And that's oh YouTube is at Monica Wlston as well. Okay, I will make sure to put links in my show notes for anyone that's interested in reaching out to you so they can get hold of you. I appreciate that. I think we can probably wrap this one up. But again, it's been a pleasure talking with you. You see, Brandon, I appreciate you. You have a good night, you too,