Ep. 91: Childhood Encounters with Supernatural Entities

And I just turned around and I call ass out of there. I was done. I wasn't dealing with them. The hypocrisy of the cult is one of the things that turned me away the quickest. When I turned my head lights on, it turned and looked at us. And one of the things I remember the most, where the eyes were glowing red. I see an orb of light. It is just circling these steps like it is waiting for me. And he begins to tell them that he saw a UFO. They're basically like, what are you talking about. That's seven foot up on a tree, peeking around it, and that's where I saw the top of the muzzle, nose and the eyes. As soon as I made eye contact with this thing, I don't like death. Welcome back to Tenfoil Tells. I'm your host, Brandon Wright. We're gonna be joined by my guest, Sapphire. Sapphire reached out to me a while back through Reddit. She's had some strange experiences growing up. 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I don't really think there's a time where I really remember not having these things around and the fact that I also have chronic depression for I guess more than ten years now. Is I contributes to that or maybe they're kind of like linked together in some way, and right now IM just trying to cope with everything. So, I mean, I already accept that you know, these sort of paranormal things are around us, but doesn't stop you from it doesn't stop me from getting creeped out from them from time to time whenever they pop out here to share my story today, Well, I'm ready to hear it. I'm sure the audience is too, so if you want to get started and you can go ahead. But it all started when I was for I was in kindergarten. I was honest sleeping having my afternoon nap with other children at the time. That was the very first time where through some sort of blue filter, blue colored filter, I could feel that something was next to it. It seems like the blue filter was like a part of its effects. Even though supposedly it was always blue, it was not ever a different color, just it was not dark. But of course the room had all this lights turned off for children to sleep in kindergarten or you can call nursery. I just kind of rolled around and b bet, I just felt a little bit uneasy, and that's it for when I was for I woke up after my afternoon nap, I barely slept and then just moved on day. That was my very first sort of encounter like it wasn't really doing much to me. So for the rest of my life after that, I just always felt like something was watching me from above or from behind or from the sides. And I sometimes can see wisps of them, and sometimes I just don't see anything, but I could really feel a sort of eerie presence around me, Like always get that impression that they are supernatural, like they are something that is not from this world and kind of alien, but at the same time, they are powerful in some way, like I wouldn't say it's religious though, because if it's religion, usually put it like it just feels different when it was like the sort of religious thing. And I remember when I was next time, what I really started to have these sort of incidents quite frequently was when I was eight years old, and I started to have really frequent nightmares and sleep paralysis starting from there. Might stay that, oh, it must be because you're we're a child back then, and maybe that's true, but and I was also going through a lot at the time, so maybe, but it seems like it's a little bit different than that because it kind of followed me around even during the day as well, and I just kind of felt self conscious on the streets so I was sleeping. I remember my very first nightmare was that I saw those aliens in a kind of like out of space that are really like dark backgrounds, a lit of environment where there's no light at all. And then those spirits supernatural beings are like trapezium and triangular shaped creature with some sort of wings and they're only on color and you're just flying around just there was like the largest one I don't know its name. I don't know anything. I saw those in my dreams, like it was just kind of trying to alert me about something because I was always thinking about dying at the time. I was struggling with a lot of things, like mentally at the time too, So I think it was trying to send me messages like after that a cow, it will look like, or whatever dimension it could be, Like that's outside of instant we know of, and so that's influenced me to believe that, of course there are pair of normal stuff going around. I had that nightmare. I have that sensation that those aliens or whatever creatures they are, they're not supposed to that I'm there, because otherwise I would face repercussions. I don't know what kind of dimension is. It seems like something not from this world that we were in. So there's one of those large creatures sitting on the throne, and that rone was like kind of rectangular shaped and with a kind of cone shaped thing on it, which is strange considering how it's supposedly cute. In a cute shaped thing that you would see something around it as well, like in the middle, which is very strange. But I just always started to get messages, but how it could look like after death or in a different dimension. And I remember my first time like having a sleep paralysis was I was it was like around three am in the morning. It got startled from a nightmare, which I'm not going to talk about because I just have so many that it's just really difficult for me to talk about some of those ones. It's not easy to recall them. Like, Okay, I had a nightmare. I startled, I think got startled, and I woke up. I I my eyes were open, but then I felt like my body was leaden and I sort of saw so those kind of neon like the kind of neon yellow and blue colored wisps like around my bed, and I sort of see a sort of shadowy thing in the dark, and you know, like children, their eyes can be quite good with dark and stuff like that. And I just thought my legs were kind of leaden on the bed, and I sort of out that sort of thing around me. But then of course I was just I for some reason, I couldn't get myself to yell or scream or anything. You know. It was just kind of frozen on my bed, which I was quite flexed about, and I was also for some reason, I didn't I didn't have the courage to leave my bed and I needed the toilet, so I ended up kind of peeling myself on a bed because it was just too much, Like I really needed the toilet, but for some reason I was I just felt like if I went out of my room that creature would catch me and kidnap me or or do something bad about like me and my life and everything, and I just felt like it was something not to be challenged with. And so yeah, I really ended up doing something really embarrassing, and I really said it. So in the next morning, I woke up and then it was like like Saturday, and then just have to act like nothing happened, even though I guess I was really like zoned out and I was just kind of confused, like it just seemed like something that couldn't have possibly happened, even though I was still kind of shivering. So again, those episodes happened, and I was also starting to think about death alot is I guess I was fris being frequently reminded of this. So those creatures started to tell me more and more and more about dying by kind of visions like drink, sleep, and outside of it, I would I usually I had some simulations, like you know, walking in the dark, kind of pretending, not not pretending, but like assimilation of being blind for around an hour. And then those times they told me that they were just watching me or I just it's not like I was telling anybody about it. Back then, I was not good at speech either. I had some developmental issues, and also, of course I didn't know how to tell people about it, even if I had the ability to. I just felt them kind of watching me. Sometimes it seems like they're protecting me, but sometimes it seems that there's something that's going to harm me in some way that I don't know how, so just remain cautious. And I remember that time in the likes emulation. I always felt like something was off, even though I was with other people and it was a dark room and I was holding a sort of blind person's cane like that's available in the center for free. I meane too, of course, but I was just so scared that I just tremble and I just needed somebody to be with me. And even when I was holding somebody else's hand in a dark environment, which to be fair, now that I think about it, it doesn't make sense because they wouldn't happen on the way either. I just barely go on, and I felt those entities kind of crowding around me in the dark room, and it was just a lot to take and like it. Like, after the experience, I was still a little perplexed as to like what was really going on with me because I felt a sort of suffocation in that room. But I wasn't really suffocated, of course, I can still breathe, but I felt them those entities kind of just crowding around me. So it's a little bit kind of distressed. But then again I didn't tell anybody about it, and I've never told anyone about anything about this until I came on here today, so it might be a little bit disorganized and well, okay, so after the best emulation, I still have a lot of episodes where I had those victuations, and then in the evening when I walked around outside, I could field them following me, so I will always kind of turn around and then there's nobody in it. It just was when I was like eleven that became quite a parent and then I started to become moody perhaps from those things because they were starting to intrude on me in my life. But then nobody else around me was having that ex variance, and at least from what I've noticed, because it's not like I asked them, they added normal. So I mean supposedly I was also normal, or at least I should pretend to be such. I mean, there's no better way for me to do anything about it. And I would sometimes m h. I would again, like feel them around me at home, and sometimes when I went swimming, I could feel them sort of watching outside of the swimming pool, though sometimes it would be kind of deterred from being in the pole alone because I felt like they would go into the water and kind of grab me something like that, like who knows, I might drown, And so I start to feel kind of for being just by myself. When I was around eleven years old, until I got older, I remember, like I there was another simulation where I was just kind of experiencing the course of life when I was thirteen years old, and it was very let me think. I went to that simulation because supposedly my family and their family friends wanted to go there and and it was my idea, honestly to go there. I mean, they just brought me there and then it was a surprise. But I always had a bad premonition about that event, and just seems like those supernatural things were kind of on the way there by taxi by foot, I mean taxi meaning cap. I mean for those of you who don't know what it means, I mean where I'm from, it's very accessible and common to you. So I mean just kind of a disclaimer. I mean in case you think, oh, I mean, I don't normally sit on that thing, but for me, it's well on the way there from home. It seems like those entities they were trying to tell me something, Like I suddenly got messages that something was kind of blooming ahead of me that I shouldn't go. I kind of threshed around. I was resistance because I believed in those entities, believe in those supernatural beings. Like it wasn't really like the religious sense. It was more like that kind of the aura, that sort of hitting realization, Like there was really kind of negative air around me all of a sudden, and I just was a little bit nauseous and didn't want to go out but then I still went anyway, because I mean, what can a thirteen year old do when their parents want them to go somewhere with them? So I went, and then I didn't have a good feeling. I said, didn't want to go, but then people were forcing me to go in there, which didn't help. But what could I do if they all forced me to be in there with everybody else? But yeah, so at first it was like you were going on like those interactive games digitally and and at some point like they were like trying to have both gain earn points in those digital devices but in the form of games at first, and it was also a dark room, and it just felt a sort of looming presence in there, and didn't have good feeling about it, like there was like in that space, it seems like the there was a greater entity, like more powerful one kind of lurking around and was standing next to me. And of course nobody else was talking about it. They can feel it, and it was very strange. I just wasn't really kind of engaged with the environment because it was at first you were just playing with those digital games and earning points, and then it was like kind of in a timer of farting minutes, so you were like experiencing the course of life and for minutes by earning points in the game and getting it deducted sometimes and then at some point kind of pathway around like ten fifteen minutes or twenty minutes, Like towards the end of this kind of game of life, you are supposedly kind of being given some sort of like impairment aid that makes it harder for you to earn points and deduct points because you're pretending to be elderly. Which I start to feel a kind of creepin sensation, even though it doesn't seem like anybody has experienced what I was feeling, or they might say, I mean, I'm just being hyper sensitive towards external similar I felt a pair of eyes from parallel, like from above, not exactly on top of me. It's more like like the north west direction, but like up there, if that makes sense, more like a parallel angle, and something was opening their eyes and was just fixed, perplexed, not fixed intently on all of us. I was perplexed. I was not having a good feeling. I really didn't know what was going to come out mixing, and the pair of eyes was just kind of watching me and just staring at me. So it was also a little bit uncomfortable. And then I was then told by the member of staff and the simulation that we're supposed to be kind of quote co dead according to the simulation. Now, so all our points are deducted, and then you have to walk through a really dark tunnel with a few lights on it. And then I didn't have a good sensation, like I felt like there was a sort of entity around the area, like it was like this when with a pair of eyes was trying to kind of warm me against going there, and I kind of listen to these entities like if I felt like they had good intentions or anything like that, and then I just I didn't want to go in there to the tunnel. But then the staff members insisted that I must go through and then must go there alone. I begged for somebody to go there with me because I really had a very bad premonition about going there alone. And I was right, you have all those points deducted, and then and then you have to walk into that tunnel all by yourself, and then it was a dark one too. Of course, Like at what I said before, I tend to feel those entities and those beings around me when I was tend to be alone or in the darker and narrow spaces like I felt claustrophobic. It was very like only intent intended for one single person to be in that space, and it was also a little bit compacted, probably because of lend use crisis. Crisis is here where I'm from, but I don't think so. Was really intended to be very narrow, so I could barely walk through with and it was also very cold. I felt a sense of coldness in that space. I stepped in there just that member slapped me and had the door closed. I felt trapped. I can't live the way I I already like what I said, I beck them like I didn't want to go that way because I had a really bad feeling from the those creatures that, like the one watching me, seems to be more like a guardian was telling me not to go in there because something bad go and happened to me. I believe in nothing, but I wanted to leave. But no, but already in it. You must go through that corridor coding to staff members, and everybody is doing the same thing. I guess I was made that there was no choice because the other door was already kind of walked or something was just really to our crew and it would Yeah, anyway, I was in this really really narrow corridor and there were like a really large poster of elderly and then suddenly, yeah, I was in that room alone and suddenly something was speaking to me. I could hear a bit. I was kind of freaked out, but my LIGs were stuck on the spot. I could barely move, but then I know that if I have to leave after moves or kind of drag myself forward, and I stood there and listened. It's that really really slow speech, which was the most frightening thing. I was trumbling from the impact, Like it was so slow with like it was kind of a looming person that I could feel as well. It was not really just a sort of speaker thing where you place thing like broadcasting way and then you would just listen, like I could feel like somebody as sort of entity is sort of like supernatural being was talking to me for the very first time, which just panicked by it. Like I was freaked out and that creature was telling me something like now I have to remember on the spot. It was just a little bit foggy because I was honestly so scared of just focusing on myself and trying to block out the noise that was telling me. But I had something to do with being life and death and like embarking on new journey and having to prepare myself for death. I guess it got worse at that time, Like when also when I felt like something was next to me and something invisible was talking to me and had a really booming voice, I couldn't and I was feeling that sense of cold, like not just the air con because it was summer it was hot, but also the sense of coldness that came from this creature it was next to me. And there suddenly the door opened on his own. Wow. I mean I always I wanted to scream but couldn't, Like my mouth was just kind of locked in there and like vo like kind of yeah, like my vocal cords can make it sound at all. It was just speechless notes like just frightened when the door slowly opened on his own. I don't think it was supposed to happen. I don't know it. I mean, normally, when you think about it, it would happen the dark member opening the door for you, right, even when it's an automatic door, it's not like they would slowly creak myself out there like an old door, like just making sounds and kind of doing it on his own. And then I was just stuck there and it was kind of going into like freeze a phone kind of respond and I was and yeah, I was stuck kind of staring at the door that was slowly opening on his own, and I feel that creature just watching me and just kind of like telling me that I might well as well die on that evening. And I was just like my heart was beating so fast through the entire process of being that clusterphioned a tunnel when I think that was That's the reason why I'm now a little bit claustrophobic whenever I'm in hidden and really like spaces that are kind of narrow and stuff like that. And then I, of course there's a stop member telling me to go in there, because I I was just standing there and just trumbling for around five minutes straight without moving. Then a staff member told me just yell at me, tell me to go in there. Now, what I was facing was a kind of coffin shape, a rectangular like item human sized for human like size for adults in there, and it was there was a very faint like I could still feel that creature around, and I was feeling rubal cold from that creature and the cold air con and I was just kind of staring at the staff member. We was really dark room too, it was only like one or two lights, so didn't help that the door was ajar and I just felt a really uneasy presence from the same creature that seemed to be watching me for the whole process and wasn't. The guardian was like somebody who wanted to harm me potentially, And the staff member was sitting next to the adult sized coffin. It was really shaped like a coffin, really looked like a coffin. And I've seen coffins before, and so it didn't help how I've seen those poor and I now see a life sized one that I was suppposed to going again. Beck the staff member not to go in that coffin because I felt like that creature might do something bad to me, and the staff member said, no, it's part of the process. You have to make yourself going there, like I'll have to force you to get in there. So she kind of ushered me, and I felt like maybe it's the creatures doing, because she was surprisingly powerful in strength, Like surprisingly she was so strong that she pushed me into the coffin, And of course I was pretty freaked out because she would saying do you want the lit closed? And I said no, please, I don't want to go. Can I get out? And she said no one, and the creature seemed to kind of slam the lid shut for me. So suddenly I was just in that really narrow space and I was just stuck there like that. And then she had to open the lit and she's like, oops, I had the lid is closed, and I'm like she asked me if I wanted to live close. I said no, and I actually said and want to be in there. And for some reason, it seemed like that creature was kind of filling in the cracks either way, even when she opened the lid, like that creature was just on the cracks. It was just kind of forcing me to suffocate inside that really narrow space, which might be why I'm just a little bit claustrophobic today. And I'm claustrophobic too, so it's okay, Yeah, thank you. Yeah. So I was quite freaked out in that really narrow space and then I it's just pretty much distressed, like like there was a video that she was making me watch and then she was saying, this is where you might be, Like I mean, according to the video, I might be in heaven and season of things, and I might be in Heller and see lots of other things, which I'm not going to explain again because it's something that still impacts me. I guess it starts something I need to reveal too much about. And again I was stuck there like that for like two minutes, and I was just kind of am I, oh news thing. I was just begging to get out. I was kind of like wrestling with the spirit that was just containing me there. And then my path influenced a stack member to force me to get in there with surprising strength. Like she was a really tiny woman, but for some reason she had the ability to move somebody into the coffin that was taller than she was. Because I was a top kid as an all teenager as well, so she was short to know it's all. So I was definitely around I head taller than she was, and she somehow managed to push me in there, which freaked me out a little bit. And then after the video was over, I was still kind of stuck there, and then she opened. Of course, the lid was already open because I forced, not forced, I begged her to have the lid remain open. But the entity, the really kind of dark creature, was kind of just fuddling all the gaps. I was feeling like I was in a coffin anyway, it was being stuck in there anyway. And then it seemed like the entity, the supernatural being, wasn't ready to let out at that moment when she said I could go, when my legs were so weak, the trembling was kind of really really dizzy inside of the coffin, and the creature wasn't willing to let out at the moment, and I just felt like being stuck in there. And she said, you can technically go, like the lid is open. What what's making you stop yourself from getting out there? And then I know there was bomb. My mouth was completely dry, and when you dressed a lot of water before going into the tunnel, so I was very scared, quite frightened that it took me around another two to five minutes before I managed to get out of that coffin, because seems like I was sort of whiting with the supernatural being that was dark and it was really cold, and has been kind of bracing myself in the coffin. Also in the whole process, was just grabbing my jacket which I was wearing was a windbreaker and purple color. And I still was kind of it's just shuddering through the whole process and kind of like trying to female legs as I get out of that coffin, and that member was already gone, which had we freaked out even more because where could she be, Like she was supposed to be there to make me feel safe, at least that was what I was thinking at the time, Like I was just quite quite how do I say it, like very distressed that I was alone with this creature. But a moment later she came back. I don't know why she left, like that didn't help me. Maybe that creature was beckoning her off to another room. Then she brought me to another room that was bright and my eyes couldn't adjust to it. It was just closing my eyes and then the creature was kind of around me for that duration, and then for some reason it just vanished around just two minutes and to that room. But then I still felt another creature replaces presence, like a less malicious one, but definitely was the creature and that really bright room and is suddenly the staff member another staff member was talking to me like they were apparently having an introspective discussion about their like simulation, which to me wasn't helpful because I was just go through something that I now considered traumatic. I still nightmares. I still have nightmares of this kind of thing to this day, so it's not helpful to be suddenly reminded right after I experienced something really horrifying to my own standards. And then I said, sorry, I just don't want to talk about it. I just don't want to engage, and then she's like, you still have to. So I felt some sort of I felt like something was making her say those things, just forcing me to relift those experiences, and I said sorry, I couldn't learn. I didn't learn anything from it. I mean, even though I kind of did accept that. What I did learn was that something was watching me, something could be harming me right now, Something could make me die at this very moment, and I wouldn't know, because I really do believe that those creatures around you exist, like I could feel them. I believe in them. I mean because of my whole life. I felt them kind of lurking around and following me to places or something else, like some sort of unexplained phenomenon, And at that moment, I kind of had it confirmed. It was not an automatic door. Other people said that the door opened for them, like not automatically, but somebody was opening the door for them, and so they were not scared of anything. But it was just me retrospect that had the door automatically creak as ell opened, and it was just not having good feeling about it too, And I was, yeah was. I listened to all of them talking. Didn't want to listen, honestly, but I was made to listen because the staff members said I have to go and give feedback, so I have to make myself listen, which again wasn't helping me have my time alone to process the things that happened to me and my family and friends. After that discussion, they were asking me about my take, and then I didn't want to share. And then they're kind of battering me. They were like trying to get something out of me, So I kind of withdrew from them, and then I felt another entity, or the one from earlier, like before the militious one came around, was I was telling me something again, like it was just you was experiencing all of that today, And there's something about me that is attracting these sort of incidences, like how did when I was eight, like dreaming about those alien entities And another time where I was dreaming about heaven and hell when I was nine years old that had me questioning where I would go after I die. That was the only time I asked somebody about something like that, and that really startled my dad, who was being questioned with that, and he didn't know how to answer, like he only said that you might go to heaven. That didn't help me because I saw hell and saw heaven and it was like very much like for a nine year old, it was a lot taken. So I was kind of just looking for the true answer, which nobody has on this earth as long as they're alive and never have died before. So I guess, I I mean guess from all the messages that I've compiled all those years was that there are lots of ways that we could get ourselves like somewhere after we died. This a lot of pathways. We all see something differently, we all see different things, and it's not really explained. But I got that message after seeing lots of these visions of all the sort of ways that I could die, what I could see after I die, and all that stuff, and how they have to lay organizes the spirits and souls that were diseased and those that yet to come, and stuff like that. So all over those years in my early adolescens, I was receiving those signals, and I of course I believe and all of them, because I don't know why people don't believe in those things. Like I've seen some paranormal like stories are real life haunting experiences, And there were lots of adults who are so skeptical, I mean, especially for those from America who were so skeptical. Where from you're supposed to believe to some degree that they do exist. But it's a little bit different because usually they talk about moths and a specific kind of ghost, but this thing I was experiencing is nothing like that. So I was also, I guess I older. When I was seventeen, I started to see why they might be bit cisical, because I can be quite critical myself, like skeptical about things that are going around me. But this one thing about like these supernatural creeds and visions and stuff I get, is not something that I dared to ever question because I could feel had a bad feeling and I kind of like feeling that they're haunting me around or not haunting, but felt like they were following me and it's not to be questioned. For some reason, I could feel that fear of terror, that sort of terror that comes with like if I questioned them, They're going to do something worse. And I've had that message since I wasn't around seven years old, so it's not like I was very old when that started happening and had me questioning things that I otherwise would have questioned at the time. I just were believing in these things. But anyway, I had that experience that got home and I had a nightmare and then it seemed like that creature came back with me to my bed and then like the malicious one and then was making me really really cold in the bit I was tossing and training, and then at some point it was just frozen on the bed and it was just too scared to move because what if that creature finds an entry way to get to me? And another day I woke up. It was a really brief incident, but definitely my body was kind of like paralyzed at that moment. You couldn't even move it, and it was very strange. I suddenly that creature wasn't there anymore, since there was absolutely nothing, which was strange considering how I've always felt something. And then the night after I could, I had a dream about going to heaven again, like like how they saw it, like people the souls and spirits after the dead. Like so I had a dream where my friend died, one of my good friends died, and then she went to heaven. I was going to the athlete just to find her. And then a dream where was like if you press a certain if you do a certain thing, like say press a certain button or or clapped in a certain rhythm when it's sunny outside, you would go to heaven. And then if it's like a stormy or rainy whatever other times, even cloudy, you might go to Hell. And then it was a really sunny day when I did that in a dream, and I was just suddenly got transported up onto the sky and was just like full of clouds and rainbows and it's like a fantasy area like sort of corner. And then apparently I went to that sort of thing. And then and then those creatures they were they coded members, like everybody has their own homes, like there's a huge, huge village of houses, and then each one has their own number, like has a it's not like one number, but it's more like a chain of numbers. And then I kind of walk, or at least it seems it seems like that from Madrim that was walking, but honestly, it didn't feel like it was really walking anywhere. Like we just see all these houses with different codes. And then I would meet my ancestors there, meet my mom's grandparents there. I mean, they're all deceased now, But and then I meet all those people from hundreds of years ago that I've never met and never even knew about because they're not in the history books. And then it and then I always get that sensation likes something it's there. And then and that was just in the dream it was a suddenly confronted a powerful creature that was stopping me from going to a specific zone. And then and then found my friend lying like on the on the grass somewhere at least that was something that looked like grass. I don't know if it's real regress and not. This probably is because a lot of grass have died at this point, and lots of flowers, lots of orchids and daisies, and also it's a flower species, even some that I don't even know about, and that lived there after they you know, died in the human world like in our world. They go there and bloom and head and there's something and then and then I would just have the vision, have that vision, and I was told by some sort of creature that that if I try to bet my luck another day, is very likely that we've gone to Hell instead. And then would have been massive fire pitfall of more coiling for me. And then that friend was trying to meet her grandparents who died in the dream according to the dream, that was what I was told. And then we all kind of got to set it back to Earth. And then I woke up in the dream after and then I asked her if she's thinking about maybe her ancestor, like anybody that she might have met, and she said, yeah, she's thinking about her her grandparents who died like a couple of years ago at the time. So I was like, wow, made this stream, you did? I go on point in some way, like just something was catching my attention. And I definitely still do believe in those sort of signals that I was trying to send me over and then again, I have a lot of dreams and visions and nightmares related to similar things, Like it's like those entities are trying to send me a message, They're trying to communicate with me. And then they were the ones give me the message. I was still with who's passively receiving messages from them? And I saw those creatures. Sometimes I couldn't see them, I could just send them. Sometimes I could tell there are some woods like that. So oftentimes, even though you would say they're not haunting you or anything, it's not like they are doing anything bad to my family, I still feel cautious that they would. I still had that sensation that's not something to be tampered until we've messed around with And so I still continue to have my eyes open for those movements just in case. And then after that, when I was around sixteen, I remember like just having that miss and I would just scream, I don't really know what they are and I couldn't remember for good of me that, I mean, what exactly happened. So I was I'm betting that it is night terrors, what you still remember, what you dream of. But something that early had reacting a little wildly like when you're sleeping, and I had loved those instances. Again for the whole time I was talking about I was going through really rough times during the day and at night I was seeing these things though it wasn't very comforting, is that? But it's not like I'm lucky that they're not out there to really like break my things or anything. So I was like, to me, it's like, it's good enough that as it is, because there are other things that could be bringing stormy about and this is not one of those things that I should go and questioned about, even though techologically speaking, of course, is one of the greatest things to be questioned about. It. I just always got that message from those beings that I'm not supposed to or is a bad idea, I shouldn't do it, And of course I listened to it because I don't want anything that happened to me or anything like that, and so I always kind of keep a distance from those creatures. And I remember that time when I was sixteen years old or yeah, almost sixteen years old. I was fifteen at the time when my maternal grandpa died. He was in his final stages. He was having a lung situation. I don't really know how to say it, but yeah, he was having that situation related to his lungs, and he already had cancers, he already had heart disease, he already had like all sorts of like the four worst things out of the sun, and now the fourth one is want to kill him. And then it was like in that room where supposedly it's exclusive to one patient who's dying, and then you know, you want a family to only have their quiet time around the patients kind of thing. I went there, actually, I was having Christmas Carol earlier in the evening. For some reason, I was quite deterred from going to that place. I had a Christmas Carol with my class from school. After school. We were brought there by shuttle bus, I mean, as in the class to the venue, and then I stayed there, of course, because I was helping out by playing the piano for one or two songs. I yeah, So I stayed until I was allowed to leave, and then the class was supposedly like going to eat dinner somewhere along with the class teacher, of course, like eating hot pot or something like that. But that I left because I had a really bad feeling. I could feel certain entities were telling me something in the middle of the concert. Of course, I could leave at the time because I was, as you know, I was doing things with my classmates and with my class and I couldn't just leave just because I wanted to, not like I enjoyed their company anyway, I mean the classmates and a class teacher and stuff. So I you know, I left right after I ended, as soon as possible. I left, and because I had a really bad feeling about what might be going on with me at the time. I mean, I didn't know my maternal grandpa was dying. Nobody told me at that point. I had no wi FI, I had no data because I was being punished for like something related to online activity at the time, so I didn't have data to get me see what was going on, so I just fled from the venue. I of course, I avoided from eating with my classmates because again I did have good relationship with them, and I just wanted to find all sorts of reasons to not spend time with my class teacher and the classmates. So I was familiar with the area. Luckily for me, I was familiar with the area. So I just went to the mall and fled there and sought for emotional support on it in an online support space. And because I feel those entities, I could feel another bunch of entities like supernatural beings. There's like a similar sword as the stuff that I was talking about when I was thirteen, like like and death stuff. They were just crowding around me and they were following me around it. I was quite distressed. I was distressed. I didn't like that feeling and something was really really uneasy. And then I went to the mall. I hit there. I used their WiFi, so I I was yeah, that was how I went to online spaces was to rely on Wi Fi from shopping malls. So I went to a shopping mall and just kept on pacing around like there was a really bad feeling. And of course at the time, I didn't know that my grandpa was gonna die, but but the entity was telling me that I'm kind of like on the verge of liking death at that moment, Like I was being told by the entities, like by auras, that something was going to happen, and something is watching me, and something is about to break out of this shell, you can say it that way. I was kind of faked out. I was avoiding human contact. And then eventually I got home. I when I got home, I didn't have good feeling when I got home either. I didn't actually eat anything, but I lied it's that I ate something because again I didn't want to get into more trouble. I had a really really bad feeling about it. And then my parents told me as I got home, like around an hour later, because it was a long journey home, that the that my maternal grandpa was dying. And he was somebody close to me, like he saw me grow up. He was somebody that ended at least once a week growing up, and I know growing up his health wasn't good. It was in a straight decline, but it was like that moment where it's finally happening to get with me, and I was I didn't know how to react to that thing, because again the entity was correct about something was gonna burst out, something that's looming, anticipating is finally breaking out of his mold, and I was having that sensation. I was having that built up as I was riding the Metro home, like a subway I was on there, I feel something was building up and up. And as I got home, like my parents, apparently they tried to contact me, but I was unsuccessful because of my phone and other issues like I don't know, I mean probably I was also blocking their phone calls because I was just needing some time by myself and I didn't want to have any contact, so that happened. They were actually angry at me. As I got home, and on the way home, I had that looming feeling got worse and worse. It seems like those creatures were telling me something like that it's not gonna be a good ending. I go home, and apparently they went to the Christmas Carol venue to look for me, to bring me straight to my grandpa's deathbed. And I didn't want to. I didn't know that. Of course, I blocked all their calls and I needed to flee at the time, like because you know, the entity was telling me to flee and telling me that something bad was going to happen, so I decided to flee. It wasn't really the entity told me to release, more like my instincts from the entities message that I decided to flee and get avoid going home and avoid meeting people I knew like it was a really bad pans up feeling. And then my parents decided to They decided to bring me straight to my grandpa's deathbed by taxi, which is to you Americans as a cat. We all sped all the way there to the hospital. And then that was when that looming feeling got worse and worse, and it was like to the worst point where I saw him a thing like something was plugging his mouth and he was just trying to breathe because and then he barely speak a thing, and I just had that believe bad energy coming out from him. Look from my grandpa who was close to dying at the time. I could feel some sort of auras and full of energy around me and definitely. It was kind of creeping me out. I could feel like something was expiring inside of him, and that was because I think, again, my connection with those auras, with those entities, with those supernatural beings was telling me things and giving me some sort of instinct that the end is coming for him, which I didn't know how to respond at the time, because again, he loved me very much and I don't really know what to do about it, and I just said thank you to him, even though to this day I don't know if he heard it. And then I was just looking and looking, and then the polloming feeling got worse and worse and worse. It was really bad that I was starting to feel nauseous. And then I got home with my parents, with my dad because my mom was staying behind to with his with her dad goodbye. Potentially he might be dying on that day or who knows. At the time, who knows, but now I know. And my grandma from my maternal side, and my aunt's and uncle from that side of the family, like the biological children of that grandpa were staying behind, so the rest of us were going home. And yeah, that was how my brother actually visited earlier, my cousins visited earlier. I was just avoiding that moments because of that looming feeling. That was feeling was building up more and more and more and more like it was about to burst, but it's not bursting yet kind of feeling. And it was the last grandchild to see. It was quite pitiful to watch my grand my aunts trying to give him some ice cream, like his favorite ice cream flavor. Yeah. I got home and that feeling didn't get better. It was just looming, like it was just becoming bigger and bigger and bigger. That was sorry to to kind of consume me. And in the evening, I was told to go to bed. Yeah, obviously I had school, and then I didn't have school on the next day, but I was going to be busy and the next day it was going to be a Saturday. And then I didn't have a good feeling. I went to a shower and then that feature was tall me. Something some sort of supernatural creature was like, your grandpa wants to tell you something. He's going to die tonight. It's like almost like a prophecy, like it just they told me that my maternal grandpa was going to die in a few hours. I couldn't sleep, like I felt that thing was like like your grandpa was trying to send you a message over and then like his life is hanging on the news right now, like his life is going to end like quite soon. Like I mean, of course they weren't telling me the exact time, but it was more like that sensation is not going to, you know, happen in a day. It's going to happen, not within twelve hours, not within six hours, but within a very short time frame. Is going to happen very very soon, like let's say two hours, three hours. And then I was pacing around the toilet. Suddenly all the lights turned off. I was booked. I felt something was in the same room as I was, and it was watching me. It could be my grandpa's soul, it could be something, and it felt scary, like I I I was in the dark room all alone, and then my parents were not my parents because my mom was in the hospital. I mean, my dad was a really fastest sleep and he was snoring. It was quite worried. I was pacing around in the bathroom all by myself, and it was really dark. It was kind of like difficult for me to article it. It was. I could see the really bright moonlight from the outside was a pale blue, but it wasn't really like bright or anything. It was more like something that's shone on the floor of the bathroom. And I looked at it, and I seemed to feel some sort of aura, like something was watching me to see how I would respond to this incident. And that feeling that I had since Christmas Carol, like the activity I was in before going to the hospital, before going home, was still there. It was just getting worse and worse and worse. Like again, what I said was like it was like a fruits about to burst itself, but it wasn't yet. I could feel something watching me, It could feel something was seen how I could I was responding to this incident, and how I was taking and saying my Grandpa's message for me, or maybe it wasn't really an explicit message. It was more of an auror like more like something that just came to me. I just nodded. I didn't know how to respond, honestly, it was just very like reactive. I got really really quiet, and then those entities was just kind of circling around me. And another one was watching me, and I was a little uneasy. As I went back to bed, I was brushing my teeth. I just felt myself kind of like like stone cold in the bathroom, was kind of just standing still and looking in the dark or something like that. It was like around one in the morning at the time. And then went back to bed and defeeling didn't go away, and then couldn't go sleep that well. It was a really restless night. I still felt those entities watching me and following me around, and I kind of stared at the ceiling of my room, and eventually I started to get myself to fall asleep. It's not like I really slept well. I mean, I have insomnia. Didn't sleep that wall was as good of a light sleep as it could be. Really like considering how was plagued by all those sensations that my grandpa was going to die or and also something was kind of burst out of the shell. And then on the next day it's true, my dad went to me and they said Grandpa died at four am, and it was seven am at the time, and then my mom and her birth family were just crowding around there that dad, husband, and then I was like, those entities were once again correct. They were right about they're right about my grandpa dying, They're right about something was looming by. It was like death was standing at the corner, trying to grab something it could take. I could sense it. I had a good didn't have a good feeling about it. I just started to really get it. It's confirmed that I am doing the right thing by trusting it, by listening to it, by by acting on my fear. Does that make sense? Like by bye being supposed to these things from a young age. It's not like I'm going to challenge it. And it is right. Sometimes it knows better than I do. Even though I I'm quite logical and like to analyze things, there's nothing about this that could really be analyzed properly. And then I just lived with the knowledge. There was a lot of taken. Like I was like, okay, those entities, those supernatural things that were following me around, the things that was looming in my chest came through and it was like, yeah, when I looked in, it seemed like that thing that was about the pop about to burst was already out there. So that feeling wasn't there anymore, And then now that I think about it, it was like inside of myself, I could feel my Grandpa's life hanging on the line, and it was like close and closer to that moment that he was dying, he was going to be dead, and that feeling was bought on. So after that there was no place for me to be doubting about these supernatural things or the fact that they do exist and they're just around us, around the corner by a lot of people skeptical. When I used to be kind of just brushing it off, I guess now I know better than to really not take it seriously. And then a week later his funeral came by, and then I went to his funeral and there was like a sort of haughty feeling around the room. I felt some sort of supernatural entity was kind of crawling around the room, not just when I felt I feel like four or five of them in the funeral center where my grandpa was having his funeral. I mean that was helped by my mom as the oldest child of the family. And it was very somber, but then for some reason I was finding myself laughing. It was very range because it wasn't supposed to be funny, right, Like, it wasn't really funny anything funny about the glue meiness. And in a way I got used to glue meaness like that was thanks to my persistent depressive disorder. It was just always gloomy to some degree, and then that was my normal. But ironically I was laughing. I felt something was was kind of trying to perm me through me. Was just laughing, and it was having me laugh, like out of my control, outside of my control, And then was acting in a way that was almost like there's really funny joke running around the corner, but it's not. Everybody was quite distressed, but how I was acting like it feels sort of like presence that was taking over me, maybe somebody who didn't like my grandpa, somebody who might be his rival, somebody who wanted to harm him, and that sort of bad energy was taking over me. It was making me do things that I wouldn't have anticipate in myself to do, because I'm not the type of person who would laugh at all, especially about these things I grew up hearing about dying here, about kidnapping. It's not like something that I wouldn't It's not like something that I would say, make a really huge joke out of and I know it's sounded inappropriate, but just couldn't help. At the time, I felt something was clinging onto me and it was just thrusting laughter out of my chest. So even when I wanted to stop, was still kind of gurgling out of my mouth, which had me scold. I got scolded by my grandma and my mom and my aunt's as a result of that, Like, way, how come you're laughing is such a serious event. And I wasn't a child who was already sixteen years old, like nearly sixteen. I was like it was like two months until my birthday, so it wasn't like an age where you get it get away with these sort of things. And then I felt that kind of everywhere in the atmosphere there's some sort of think there was around. I could feel it, and I didn't want to be in places alone with it because I could feel that it might be there to haunt me forever if I wasn't careful. So I was always trying to make sure that I was around the people so that the energy could potentially not harm me, Like I potentially it could be better for me if I'm not alone, so I might be less vulnerable on this blot. And I went to toilet. I felt something in the girl's toilet, which is the restroom or the washroom if you're more familiar with those terms. Then I just was very quiet. I went really quiet. I was trying to block out those things. I felt that they were around the cubicles in the funeral part of it, I mean, the funeral center. And then I could find myself barely breathing properly in the toilet, and I was I guess like, I felt like I had to quickly leave that room or else I'll be trapped in there with the door locked and unable to open. And I was right, because after that, somebody else was trapped in a toilet, and I was like, well, it's good that I listened to those instants. It seems like all my life they've been trying to communicate with me about different things. And it gets more serious as I get older, as I face more sources of tragic things. Not like my childhood wasn't a hard time, but there's definitely more of me to process now that got older, and I feel like maybe those entities know that I'm in an age where I'm more able to process these things and understand them than I was when I was a child, and they started to show more of their presence to me. And when I started to study abroad, I had once against the paralysis and night terrors, I had that really loving feeling. I was staying in a really narrow corridor and a hidden corner of the of the floor I was on. The second floor was in a really hidden corner, and the reason why I was being inside there was because the house mistress I was studying in the boarding school. By the way, I was like they had their own accommodation. They assigned me to that room and it was a larger room. It was something that I could potentially say left for a while, so I stick there. And then in the evening, I always felt like something was in the room, like there's something from the past that was trapped inside, and it was always manifesting itself, more so in the evening than anything, and I would just get scared of going back to my room. And it was also very creaky, like the building was old. And then I was also in the really hidden corner that I was staying and as you know, and then there's only three rooms, two which are occupied by me and another person that was far away, not too far, but you know, you take like ten steps before you get there by foods you. There's also a real also a door that separating between the main corridor and this hidden corridor, and the door was always closed. It was as it was a fire door, so it had to be closed as well, And that didn't help. Have you feeling like those entities were stuck in the corridor and there was nothing for me to do about it, and the evening I was feeling them looming next to me. I just get scared of leaving the room because I could sometimes sense that those entities are just outside waiting for me to go there and trap me. So sometimes even when I was hungry, even when I was really like wanting to go to the toilet, I was still staying in my room. And there were times where I almost peed myself because I just couldn't get myself to leave the room. Like I had a really bad feeling about leaving it, especially when it's dark and when it got dark earlier, and of course I was studying abroad, I was staying in my room alone. I was also away from home, and so I was just coping with everything, and I had trouble sleeping because I was worried that those entities would come and get me when I was sleeping, like I will also worry and then barely get asleep properly and only sleep like it, slept like three hours a night, and the rest of the day was just full of studying and working and lots of things going on for me. So I saw those black vortexas around those entities. When I was taking a shower, it seemed like something was also in the shower with me. And there's something that was just always clogging the water when I was showering. It was just never fixed, even when the housemistress told me that it was fixed. It always seems like something was just gathering in the water. I mean as a rationalis sounded. And I was always got visions of myself like potentially kind of drowning myself from all that water like built up inside of the cube showering cubicle. And I have those back feelings that start to black out those in the shower, and then I didn't have to go feeling about it about going to showers or sometimes I would determine myself from going to the bathroom just to take a shower that ended up being really dirty. But sometimes it really gives me a peace of mind. Sometimes it makes me a little bit self conscious of how I might have smelt to other people. So I felt them following me all the way to another country. I don't know if they were the same creatures, but they felt different though, so it might be a different creature, and it might be a different creature within the same species, if that makes sense. Like definitely had a different history than like since from the other creatures that encountered more of the regional or cultural history. And so I had those attacks just suddenly black out was like padic attacks or I don't really know. And then sometimes I could feel there looming around in the house. I could feel their presence in the evening, and sometimes during the day when I was alone, sometimes feel the walking nest to me. Or sometimes they might be making sounds like I remember sometimes where I was on the bed, my eyes were opened, but my legs were paralyzed against slip paralysis. And then I would hear things and I would see the wisp of green light similar to what I had when I was smaller but in different color. Suddenly it was kind of brightish outside. I was wondering what on earth somebody could be doing when the sun wasn't up yet, and was like I was estimating around like four it at night, so it was like supposedly most people be asleep at that time. And then I was very kind of disoriented, and somewhat I would see visions, I see stuff and I hear around my bed next to my bed on top of the ceiling. Was just kind of staring at those things and being too scared to move like how I did when I was standing here, kind of reliving the days that I used to have. Was I was also pretty stressed out and knowing that stress has something to contribute to these things as well, So that wasn't easy. And all the next day it was having a really busy day outside of the boarding house, the dormitory, and then when I went back, they're all over again. So it's very overwhelming that I I started to work it outside of my room and then work like outside of that building. Even at some point when I was working some hands can feel with those entities walking around in the computer room, which was often empty and didn't feel something was there. Something was creaking the floorboards, and it was old too, so it was not helping that. Always felt like something was next to me and something was around up and down the stairs, even though none of my glassmates at the time told me or told anybody that something was off, and the house mistresses didn't say anything about it too, so I assumed that nobody was feeling it because I didn't want to alert anybody or telling anybody about those things. And in those places, yeah, I just started to feel them strongly. The older I got, the more intense they were, like those signals, the more I believe in them too, when they were starting to act to mease. Before when I was smaller, they didn't really do anything. It's more like their presence was scaring me, and I was like I could feel them. Sometimes they were doing stuff deliberately and it would be a little bit strange, and it's not like I wanted to fight with them arning things. So I proved that I was just peaceful my actions, I guess, and I was just cautious and looking out for myself. So that was how I grew up and then those entities until I graduated from that school, I still felt them around me as I went to bed. As I sat in my room alone and was winding down for the evening, I could feel them around again. It was a historical building in a historical school, so I don't blame it. And sometimes when I went to school, like in the middle of the day, I can still feel another bunch of entities, like from the main building, which was more than a one hundred years old, kind of packing around those corners. There's always something lurking around, even when the room is empty, especially if there's a large room, and sometimes when there's a small room, there's always something that seems to be there and I could put my finger on it, and technically it was empty, or there's only me and another person, or me and supposedly the group of people that were supposed to be there. But I always had a sensation that something was up, but then I wouldn't tell anyone because it would have distracted everyone from the important thing at hand at the time, which was learning a lot of stuff in class. And it always brought me like to think even more convincingly that they are just there there, but we just don't know about them yet. And of course I didn't tell anyone about it, but always brought myself into those classrooms anyway, because of course I have to go to class where else would I go, Even though there was always a part of me that was anticipating for what they might be doing next. And it was fine. They weren't malicious or anything was They were just there. It was quite innocent, but I could still feel like something was there. And that's the thing. I didn't want to scare anybody either, and people could be skeptical about those things that I didn't want to spend my energy continding anyone when I am chronically depressed, and I don't really want to use my energy on something like that, so I just looked for it. I just have it following around me, and the school grounds and the buildings, especially the old ones. The new ones you don't really feel anything. It's just the old ones, the old buildings that had you feeling that something was there, that something was just around the corner, but you just don't see them yet. And after graduating, I went to university. On the way, I was staying a wholest families home because I was again studying abroad and there was nowhere else for me to live. So that's a place where I got to stay temporarily for a few months or however long. It was hit me and then when I was walking around in the village, I always felt like something was there. I always felt like something was watching me, something else was on the streets, even when it was empty. And again I don't don't tell anybody about it, because why would I tell anybody overroad it. I just believed they were there. It's not like they were harming anybody. They weren't harming me for starters, they were just there in the village, so especially for those empty spots like the car park, and yeah, I started to really believe that they were just walking among this. It's just that we don't see them yet at the time. At that time, I already got convinced them. And thanks to my encounters what starting from when I was sixteen, it was just increasingly more convincing. And now I guess those places were more historical. Abroad, they tend to have more of those entities around, and there's a different kind of entities, like they weren't shaped exactly the same way they were. Instead of be an alien sheep, they're more like a human or a kind of shadow or nothing at all. You just feel their presence. And sometimes I go to university in the evening and I would fill them by the grassy patches. Where I was staying in university was quite rural. There were plenty of cows and sheep and pigs and other animals like chicken and horses. So yeah, there was a farm around like twenty minutes from there, so it was very close by. I mean buy footstas if if you use a car, that would be like five minutes. And then and then I would feel something was lurking around those really really quiet places, like when I was buying food somewhere in the suburbs of that city, which is quite historical. So I noticed that in that country, in that area and the more historical areas like of that country, it tends to have more of those entities around from my own experience. And then, and where I'm actually from, is this less of it? I mean, usually in the historical buildings you tend to feel more. But it's a different kind of entity than the sort that you have on in simulations of life and death and other stuff like that, or the eerie atmosphere in the hospital. It's also in different, different kind of supernatural being than either of those two. But they're there, there are around somewhere, And yeah, when I got back home from studying abroad after three and a half years, I still do believe in them. I have less encounters now though, like compared to before when I was studying abroad in a very historical area and was always looming around somewhere with no matter how serene or how innocent looking the area was. Now and my way from it's less historical, so is I felt less of it around me, But it doesn't stop me from believing in those entities and sometimes having nightmares and sometimes feeling their presence somewhere, and the fact that I am still looking at for those things, and I still believe in paranormal investigations, like I've watched the videos of them, but I've never engaged in any of them in person, Like I just watch videos and look from afore because I don't want to tamper any of those spirits. I mean, I know that as long as they're peacefully existing with this, as long as as we don't bother with them, they like they will bother with me. So that's my story that has a lot to take in. Mhmm, yeah, thank you. Now, I do have a couple of questions, and I'm not trying to like make your brain or anything, but like, what do you think these things actually are? Like do you have do you think their spirits? Do you think they're interdimensional? You think they're alien? Like what do you actually believe that these could be? Because you refer to them as creatures, but what do you think they if they're an actual physical creature or if they're more of a spiritual supernatural element to them. I think they're more of a supernatural element. That's why I always say that they're supernatural beings. And it's more like something that if you can't see them usually conceal them, you can sense their presence. And that is how experience it. I barely see anything, but whenever I saw just a little bit of something that would make me quite alert. When was one of the last time you've actually felt their presence? Last time was around a month ago, and that was when I went to a historical area once more, to more of a really claustrophobic place myself, and I could feel that something was just off about that venue. But I didn't say anything, and it seems like they were just trying to communicate with me because I believe in them, because from there's something about me then, probably because of my more sensitive nature, like an external stimuli that could just send them out even when people usually cannot. Do you think because of your you said claustrophobia or whatever. You think, it's like your anxiety or your fear that is something that they can sense and that draws them towards you. It's possible because I grew up with plenty of fear, of a lot of loomin questions, they might have brought itself to me alongside with it. Like because I was raised in a way that I was always reminded that I will die someday, not just raised, Like my thoughts automatically went there when I was told about always told about newspaper clippings of kidnappings, of being murder all that kind of stuff. So I started to think of all sort of ways that we could be dead at the moment, but not knowing how. Like maybe those entities sense that come to me more. Maybe they're trying to answer my questions and maybe they just want me to know that they're there so that I would believe in them. I don't really know. I feel like there are certain types of energies, and even we want to call them entities, but I feel like they feed on the vibrations from us, and if you're afraid of something, if you have anxiety, is something that's usually a lower vibration, and there are certain things that feed on that. I believe, I'm not. I can't say what they are because I have no idea. That's just something I kind of believe in. Oh, that's why I'm saying. I wonder if there's a correlation to when you're going through these moments and that's when these entities appear. I'm wondering if it's not because of how you're feeling, it's manifesting them and drawing them to you. Sometimes I'm quite calm, then they're just there. Other times I was really fearful that they might do something, and that was when it got stronger and stronger. But sometimes it seems like they were just telling me something. And sometimes yeah, like in those moments, it's like I didn't actually know anything, but there was something that was hinting me that something was going on, and I have to look out and then eventually the answer was there like a bit later. So I believe there's a mix of both. But I don't really know the answer. I mean, as much as I wish I knew the answer. Sometimes that's the problem we have is I don't know if we'll ever know the brill answers. That's I do my show to give people a platform to talk about their experiences. But the reason I do my show is because I wanted to find the truth about some stuff that I experienced myself, and it's been a hard pill to swallow that I'll probably never really know the truth. Yeah, and everything we experience in different places could be just different manifestations of the same thing, or they could be different kinds of creature and creatures in a different kind of world from us. I just believe they are just they're there. It's just that we don't see them or we don't hear from them, we don't send them. They just walk and a where from Ye, there's a common belief that there's some souls that are just around in the form of moths like this this disease, that are trying to look for you, and they're showing you ways they're showing you that they're there or that there are just different things that come with it. So like ghost stories, like ghosts are there and then their stories about them, and it's it kind of might have contributed to why I am less skeptical than I Otherwise would I have. Given how i'm I tend of question a lot of stuff that I could see or hear and stuff like that. It's a cultural factor that gets tied into it. Yeah, So coming from my side where i'm I grew up in a very Christian family and I'm not that way. I'm not against religion or anything like that. I just I have my own beliefs about religions, and I do believe there is a spirit realm. I do believe there's more to life than this, at least I hope there is. But I struggle to believe that what people are encountering, like these energies and spirits or whatever they want to call them. I'm not so sure that there are souls leave in our body and trapped here. I think they are more and I mentioned this several different times. I think what we interpret to be spirits could be something that they are always there. Anyways, we just don't see them, and what we call a ghost or anything like that could be something from a different plane of reality that we just don't see. So that's yeah, when you say they're always there, I do tend to agree with that. I think all this stuff is connected somehow, and I think it's always around us. Yeah, Like I watched a show called a Haunting mm hmm, and that show shows just shows people that they're just there. In some cases, they can haunt you, like if you really do try to tamper with them. So in my opinion, it's just better to leave them as they are unless they're harming you, because oftentimes you're harming them first and then they harm you back. So you never really you never really experienced anything super negative from them. They'd have you. They've told you things about almost like give you premonitions or warnings about things that are happening, but they've never done anything. Yeah. I really do believe that some of them can be very harmful. But in my case, yeah, they're just warning me or they're just giving need that moving feeling like something's going on. And yeah, so yeah, it's not like I ever got injured by any of them, which I am still quite. I still find quite, you know, fortunate to this day, but not everybody's just lucky. And I still look at me. It's not like I'm no longer scared of them by any means, because there could be another one somewhere else that could harm me or do worse things than that. Yeah, I've always kind of just thought like we never really know, And I don't like telling people that things can't bother you. Though they can't hurt you, spirits can't. I don't know, And I think anything can have the intent to not be nice to us. I guess I don't want house to say like they have the abilities to do harm. Yeah, physically or mentally or some way. I think they impact everyone. It just depends on the person. Yeah, Like sometimes there's some people who I mean, who might be harmed by it a lot, and then other people who don't feel anything at all. So very subjective. Yeah, no, I completely agree with that. But we're getting close to two hours, and I want to take a moment to find out if there's anything else you'd like to discuss. You have your own podcast, you want to let the audience know a little bit about it. Okay, so my podcast is completely unrelated to paranormal things. It has something to do with dissociative identity disorder, which is something that I am diagnosed with, and that podcast is something to share about community topics and well like terminologies and kind of just dissecting them. Right now, I'm covering the scientific aspects and also the very basic common terms that different people on the inside of the community tend to use. But later on I will discuss about more like debates and some things that they don't want it usually people do want to talk about in the community. So hopefully, right now, I'm only hoping that it will kind of connect people from the white the public with the people that are in the community themselves so that there's less of a barrier, and then there are things that they're already explained for them and not not like just by lift experience and more like from a quote unquote objective standpoint and more like what people tend to use, what I've noticed that people do, So it will be definitely is a different angle than what you usually might encounter from people with the lift experience. But no, I think that with me and what I do, it does tend to draw in more of the supernatural elements. But if you're doing something that I think is a good thing, I'm always going to try and help somebody out. That's what I enjoy doing. So I will include your links in my show notes or anyone that is interested in checking it out, because you never know who's listening. Someone could also have the same diagnosis. Yeah, there are more and more people talking about this diagnosis, which is a good thing. But at the same time, I've noticed that they tend to talk about just their own lift experience, which I have nothing against, like talking about lift experience, but we only talk about your own People might think that it's just it's just you who has this just that person, Oh also happens to happen, but doesn't mean anything, does it. So it's more like something that I want to share people to find out kind of the links or death notice from the community over a course of three years, and you want people to kind of gain as us to that kind of information without like from a more definitive way, more of an analytical way, instead of just about my personal experiences only like that's something that I find a niche at the moment, and just contributing in that sense, like and there's not a lot of podcasts that do that talk about this, and I've not seen any that dedicates itself only for this sort of purpose. So I'm working on it, and I'm hoping that if some of your listeners are interested, they would just come along and to my Instagram page, and I tend to update the most over there on Instagram. So if you're one of those people that are interested to learn more about it from a more see dissecting cut of standpoint instead of just about of experience, then that's what I would do that. I would recommend that make sure to send me the links to your podcast and your Instagram, and like I said, I will include those in the show notes for anyone listening. Okay, but I think we can go ahead and wrap this up. I do appreciate you coming on here and talking with me, and I know you mentioned you haven't really shared this before, so I do appreciate you sharing that with me and then my listeners, because I know it's difficult to talk about certain things, and I think a lot of people listening tend to forget when you interview others. Sometimes reliving these events can be traumatic, and I think people need to understand that, and sometimes it can be therapeutic and sometimes it can be emotional. So yeah, I always just like I said, I just I'm here to allow people to speak. I'm not here to prove or disprove anything. It's just me letting people tell their story. Okay, Yeah, thank you so much for having me today. Yeah, problem really appreciate you listening to my story and whoever that has listened. Untold the end of this podcast episode. No, now we can wrap this one up. So I want to say thanks to Sapphire and thanks for everyone for listening. Good Night everyone. Remember the truth lies, and the stories we share, the connections we make, stay curious, stay open minded. Thank you all for joining us on this journey. And until next time, keep questioning, keep seeking, and keep exploring. The EndNote, good night everyone,